Today woke up early to prepare lunch and dinner just to get ready setting off meeting Agnes @ Vivo. The Kiasu me reached mrt early fearing the rain may strike. Lucky it didnt. Bought a Xmas present for Zann too. A winnie the Pooh board books. Saw Zann holding onto it quite long, Confirm she like it liao. Hee, So that was the chosen one (gift) LOL
Saw Agnes the first time. Almost couldnt recognise her initially. Hmm maybe i Cork eye (din wear spec/ contact lense also). Zann make funny faces in the mrt. (as usual tht's her pattern). We had late lunch at BK. Not really full oso. But nice. 1st to shop at ToyRus, haha Agnes finally believed Zann dun like Soft Toys. But then still appreciate the Pooh she gotten for Zann.Afterall it's the thought that counts. We walked quite a while..Zann oso turned cranky (Lack Of Sleep ba).
We walked over to Harbour Front. Went in COAX. Nvr really notice this shop. !st time. (yah i am sua ku). Thanks to Agnes showed me this tube dress..I like it and it's cheap. Hee Even DH oso compliment it. Sigh it's been a long time since I dolled up liao.
Today I woke up at 6am, preparing milk and dozed off with Zann until 930am..She woke up earlier, while me still having difficulty waking up despite her calling me umpteen times. V tired. Anyway still forced myself up. Gave her bread in milo for breakfast and she loved it. HB called saying will be coming hm today ard 11pm. So late. He must be feeling disappointed that I canf fetch him given the late timing. Zann needs her ZZz.
He asked if his folks called which he believed they ll call. On what grounds? cos they are his parents? or believing they have done their part showing concern abt me? I was already unhappy with them (yes they let me down before in the past).
I am asked to let go of the emotion baggage many times but saying is easy, doing it is hard. How not to bother abt them when they always have something!
What have they done to make me feel i am accepted as a daughter inlaw? Nothing.
Only hurtful words+their so called rules+ their ego style!!!
Being married, is considered half daughter isnt it? I I told my HB, if they really treated me as one, they wun even came up with this thkg tat " Elders shldnt celebrate for the younger generation" - this phrase refering to me! Ok HB is their Son, Zann is their grandaughter. Then what Am I? IT really hurts to hear that. I am unwanted. Not even a feeling of daughter.
And it hurts even more when HB said I dun respect them. What have I done wrong? I was so good them in the past no one see. Now everythg seems like i am a sinner. To ask for acceptance as Daughter so difficult ? IT Really hurts! How can HB say like that !!!
Now they told HB they ll only buy present for Zann.
I argued this with my HB. they can come up with anythg, any rules ..say what they like and make HB think they are right. Their attitude is really fuck up. And HB never stand up for me. Maybe i am just an extra, who happen to bring Zann into tis world. SAD. I cried when I think of this. No one knows. No one bother.
MeatBall Receipe
Monday, December 18, 2006
REcently, Me into meatballs. In d end decide to experiment..hmm not that bad la "_"
Meatball
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2 eggs
1 tbsp soy sauce
1 tbsp sugar
1 pkt Minced Pork (AirPork Fresh)
1 tsp salt
1/4 cup corn flour
Oil
>>>Beat egg lightly, add soysauce+sugar (Mix Well),
>>>Add Pork then salt & form into ball shape
>>>Coat with egg and flour and FRY in hot oil
'Wet' MOnday :(
Me was drenched this aftrn. On the way hm from the 'Shopping Centre'. It's me and Zann's 'favourite' NTUC. Lucky Darling wasnt wet..she had the stroller cover. I am the one looked pathetic. Tired and Drenched :( Last nite 3am Zann woke up crying. I knew she wanted milk. And again she cried for milk again at 6am. And that was the last milk she 'wanted' for today liao. Whole day after that she refused milk, wasted the amt of milk I have prepared. Angry. I had M&M Choco infront of her. Hee her eyes glowed, seeing so many different colour. I tot I can bribe her using M&M, to drink milk. (letting her to hold the pack) Gee she vomit the milk out and chuckled. Sigh, Zann is a naughty baby! Cant stand her sometimes.
A tiring Sunday
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Today din go anywhere. Stayed at hm whole day occupied my time with little darling. Weather was good. Raining but cooling. Did a bit of changes to Zann's lunch menu. She had steamed egg with pork..Woo she loved it..tummy bloated. She tried to nap but duno why she keep bugging me "bao" (means carry). Oh i phobia of this word. Whole aftern just lidat, she not napping and I cant have my beauty nap as well...LOL ..DH is in Thailand. I called him, kinda of feeling blue (or rather depressed). Guessed wat, he vented his frustration on me. He may extend his stay there. Oh man! I was already so sad..a call to him =more SADDER! Damn it, I decide not he shall not hear from me for a while.
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Cendrine
i am a simple woman with a
beautiful daughter Zann.
My life now revolving
around her. She bring joy
and laughter. Through her,
i learn to look at things with a
fresh perspective and know
how to value life.
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