Today has been raining the whole day. Wondered why it doesnt stop at all. Cant go anywhere not even buying groceries nearby. Weather is cooling but not the mood. Me and HB feeling lousy. We quarrelled again. Yesterday also the same. Even though we spent a xmas outing at the airport and tampines mall. He feel frustrated easily and talked to me in a 'Dun feel gd' tone. Asking him to be more caring towards me seems like a chore to him. He later apologised in the airport yeasterday. But back at hm, he back to his temper again. Promised me no more vulgarities oso cant fulfill. Talked abt his folks he started being defensive. He doesnt even understand there's a reason for my resentment towards them. In his phrase, there's always the word' You'. ..you that / you this...as if i am the one at fault. Sooner or later, we may really drift ..Apart or we have started to. Sad. Sad Xmas yesterday. Sad rainy day today. Sad that he doesnt make an effort to care.