Be it a joke or what, even if it is, isnt funny at all. Not the first time. And It wasnt a good feeling to hear frm hb saying Zann is a F**k face last nite. How would Zann feel if her own daddy scolded her like that!? I told him off. Even If I tell inlaws their own son always treated Zann like that, no one ll believe me, they ll always protect him. Mil used to say, hb maybe feeling vexed. Oh, does that mean if i vexed, feeling lousy, I can beat Zann or vent on her?! It just doesnt make sense.

Fil sms-ed hb saying want to meet him and my mum. Me not in the picture. Somehow must be related to my past I told them. I dun care anymore. Hb told me he wasnt not bothered by it. Yet asked me " u really told them, i know u didnt" Oh too bad I have told them. Why? " U getting cold feet ar" ? I kind of feel disillusioned with this marriage. Everything of it. He doenst even love Zann, always refer her as a burden. If there's one word to describe, Rotten. A rotten marriage.

Everyone knows abt the reunion plan and me the last one to hear abt this. I told everyone, I wont force myself to be so unhappy facing pple i dun like to see and to pretend to feel good just for the sake of this dinner. No way to be a hyprocrite. Nothing to eat at most, instant mee is fine with me. For Zann, I can always go market to get those raw ingredients beforehand. So what's the big deal?!

Came across an article days ago, some pple includin me, often in the text message language, using the word- omg for 'oh my god' is a kind of showing disrespect towards God. For christians to understand esp. In every way possible, we have to be careful not to turn the hallowed name of our God into just another flippant phrase on our lips or in a text message. For this, me certainly enlightened.