Today Zann woke up ard 10 am. I fed her kiwi and cod fish oil for the start. The timing close to her lunch. She managed to finish the chicken porridge I prepared. Same for the dinner. Dun dare to five spinach too much cos she had diarrhea yesterday. She cried for 15mins in the playpen and sleep at 130pm. Need to be time conscious cos have to know what time she wake up. In d end she slept for half an hour. Sure not enuf one. True. But I still keep her awake. Trained her on the activity walker. She managed to walk two steps. I am so happy.She din want to stand long so I passed all the toys to her. Made a mess on the floor.
i was disappointed when hb dun even bother to call when he know he ll be hm late. Taking me for granted again. And I have to be the one making the calls. Today is Friday and I told him I wanted to go out since my mum off today. HE okok in d end still in his work again. I am so tired. Why cant my hb help to relieve me, I really envy other pple's hb so nice to their wife. Do I have to treat him as my HB or younger brother? (He doesnt even knw what it takes to be a HB and a father). I am feeling feverish this morning, And a headache.
Why everyone have a break ..or rather they feel themselves deserve a break but not me. I am feeling frustrated now. My mum off today and asked her to help me look after Zann a while.. in d end she went put shopping.....Cant find own HB when I called him at 830pm. Cant even find him when I need him. Told him yesterday Zann need more vaccinations..he acted like bo hiu. KNN. I am really pissed with him.KNN ll be better off alone w/o him. Maybe ll happen one day! Bad temper, not making effort, forever blaming environment. Told him so many times. Even ask him how our wedding photos..he oso F care. No weddin dinner between us ok i am fine ...but dun even have a basic wedding photo..really a joke in this marriage.

I am wondering why on earth I have to be with someone 4 years younger than me. If no Zann, the answer ll be no.