I have been praying for more patience as I find myself suffering from other kinds of stress but what I know for sure is, I am very short-fused at times and I can really snap at Zann. To make matter worse, I had a leg injury. I know this is not an excuse and to top it all up, Zann still had not recovered from her cough.

Just like this morning, she put on a struggle with me when I tried to pin her down to change diaper. Just when I pulled out the baby wipes, she took her own poop and eat it. And the clothes and hair stained by the poop as well. I knew she wasnt sensible enough to know what's going on, but It is not fun when she throw tantrums and it can get unbearable. It was a mentally toil on me. I gave her a smack on the hand. I was silent as I changed her clothes and brought her to her bed. But when I put her down, I kissed her as my tears fell.

I know motherhood is not easy but I never knew it would be this difficult. But I will still continue to pray; for strength and patience.



Ever wonder why the FIVE Australian hosts are so popular with the kids. Zann is not exceptional. She has a huge crush on them. The time of the day starts at 5pm every Monday to Friday. Look at that pair of eyes, focusing on the television, not at the least bothered by me taking snaps of her...

"Mummy, talk to me later. I am busy watching Hi-5 now."

I bought a red kiddy chair for her. She seems to like it. And I am still considering the matching table. My only worry is that she might not sit still for long, unless I find her some activities.

"I am hungry, Is my lunch ready?"

"Woa Mummy, U gave me a fright. U still taking photo of me?"

" Ok, this is my best pose, can?"