What I expect from husband, the definition of it? Now and then I still ask myself, what's for me married to someone 4 years younger. Nothing only more resentment towards him.

To understand me, finding out the cause whenever I feel sad, angry. Being sensitive to my feelings and providing constructive advises (or rather words), to love me even more than his own folks. To be mad at them giving me the shit treatment I had so far.
So? None of them fulfilled. Not at all. On the contrary, can even asked me to be extra nice (FUCK, what's extra nice?) even if they treated me badly! Till today, he still cited every reasons he could think for his folks' actions. If he can tell me he's disappointed with me, I told him I am even more disappointed with him. He and his folks just another piece of shit.

I really regretted. Whenever I came to think of this, apologised to his old folks 1 year ago for his sake to make peace. (NOT that I have done anything wrong to them). I did it out of making everyone happy. Yes, happy! What abt me? Today, they did not do anything to appease my anger. Not even a word of sorry for the treatment I received. And to think that Hb can say me also in the wrong in a casual tone. WTF. In what way have I done them wrong? Tell me. He cant even give me an answer. Only silence.